Tuesday, September 27, 2005

dis heart ted

I realised the other night that the person I want to be is close enough to spit on. It's weird but those little steps I need to take to get there just never get taken.... it's not that I don't think I could take them, it's not that i think it would be hard.... it's just that i don't.

Even now I can feel the joy and excitement of living surge through me. My life is good. Nothing changes but the joy and satisfaction I feel rolls around.

I worked as a bar tender at the Gallery on Friday night. I discovered that everyone wants to talk to the Bar Bitch. It was the most fun I've had in a while, the conversation flowed and I had something to occupy my mind and my hands.

That's it you can go back to whatever you were doing before you started to read this. I just wanted to tell someone.
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Thursday, September 22, 2005

10 things

I'm feeling good today. I've been thinking about my list of ten simple things that make me happy.

reading
sunshine
hammock
music
women
writing
the ocean
bike riding
beer
new things


I guess this means my ideal world is reading a new book while in a hammock on the beach on a sunny day. Good music would be playng in the back ground while being served beer by women. That sounds about right...oh I would be riding home when the sun goes down.
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

things are becoming clearer

The majority of my ideal jobs involve reading and writting. It makes me wonder why I manage an IT team for a living. Everyone says that you should do what you love.

Reading and writing are the things I love so I should really be looking into that arena for full time work.

I doubt my skills but if I don't give it a go I'll never know (hey I'm a poet).
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Morning

I just banged out that last blog entry without checking it. This morning I re-read it.... there are a few mistakes but I'm gonna let them stand. The universe feels good this morning. Nothing has changed but how I'm looking at the world. The weekend was great, I'm feeling bonded to my wife and everything is unfolding as it should. Hopefully this feeling will keep going a bit longer.

Monday, September 19, 2005

100 words (but who is counting)

So now I've started to write again. It's amazing how much I look forward to banging out any old crap yet when it comes time to sit down and actually do it I just don't know where to start. So I've started at the point where I have nothing to say. Just type, don't think. It's like the 100 words a day website. Every day you are suppose to bang out a hundred words of crap to get your juices flowing and the brain in gear. No topless pictures this post.... I'm feeling at peace with the world, my desires have subsided.

There was no reason she should have left, no reason that he could think of. She was gone though, there was no doubting that. She had even left a postcard to remind him that she was gone. It said that she was leaving the country, didn't know when she was coming back and even if she did it was doubtful that she would be returning to him. He was thinking that this was a little weird. Just a few dys agao everything was good and now there was a gap where his wife use to be. When he first found the postcard he was angry. Soon anger gave way to hunger and he had some toast. This was going to take a bit of getting use to.
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

A shot from my birthday


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more of the same



My blog has been a forum to discuss my issues with goals and planning. For the most part I've stayed away from talking about my inner self and have focus on my outerself. This entry isn't going to be any different. I felt great while following the goals I set for my self but I got bored. Doing all the right things made me feel good physically but left me a bit empty mentally. I'm turning back towards the health kick (groans from everyone who knows me) but I know I'm just going to get bored again. I really need to find a way to make life seem interesting and worth while without having to indulge every passing whim (not every one, some of my whims would be detrimental to my life). It seems to be a samll thing to go to the gym, eat well and not smoke but every time I try I get increasingly frustrated with my inability to stick to the plan.

Dream Job #8 Magazine editor (black and white preferably)


Why?

You get to read interesting article submissions all day. I could ask people to write about the things that I'm interested in. I would have a magazine to read in which all the articles would be the ones I wanted. Every day you get to immerse yourself in interesting topics and information. Your job is to keep your finger on the pulse and have interesting things to say.

If the magazine was black and white I could also get paid to look at arty nudes. There are worse ways to earn a living. Are we detecting any reoccuring themes yet?
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

I'm back


After two weeks sailing the seas of indulgence I have returned to blog. My journey took me far away from any of the goals I have set myself. I visited the land of sloth and the land of much smoking.

There have been some high points while I have been non blogging. Over the past two weeks I have found myself at a number of gallery openings drinking free/cheap beer and feeling very arty in general. I've come to the conclusion that it is more important to feel arty than to actually be arty (although being good at art would be fantastic).

The fundamnetal questions of life have been nipping at my heels again. I've started to wonder if I'm too obsessed with having a goal or something meaningful to do. Who said I needed to be doing constuctive things with my life and what does constructive actually mean? I'm planning to lighten up on myself a bit. I'll try to do the right things... gym, not smoking and the like but still have fun when fun is to be had. In honour of this new found freedom I'm going to post a picture of a naked girl because I love naked girls!
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Typo city

I just re-read my last entry. Type fast, spell bad

quick update



My spare time at home has been taken up with evily addictive Sid Myers Pirates on the xbox (curse you xbox).

I've sat down to blog twice in the last few days.Each time I delete the entry without posting. Third time is a charm.

Staying Alive was a great musical. I'm not a musical kind of guy but the Bee Gees get my hips moving.

I got to go for another dive on the weekend. No grey nurse sharks this time unfortunately but we did get to see a whale do a full breech. They sound amazing under water. I've never heard whales in the ocean before. Once again I went through my air realy quickly - 200 bar gone in 35 minutes. I'm blaming the smokes I had that morning. (yes the weekend was a complete breakdown of the non-smoking regime).

I have been given some new gifts for the Tiki lounge from Roodgy. A cool stone carving of a woman... her name is Whilma (not sure how to spell it). Roodgy and Detta are great... they would have to be the friendliest people I have met in ages...... Detta has her own blog at http://aitcho.blogspot.com/ With any luck there will be some new photos going up here soon.

The photo is from a burlesque game show called this or that... now that is entertainment (shame we don't get i here ;-()


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Thursday, September 01, 2005

update

Just got cable at home - more posts more regularly ;-)
Just saw Saturday night fever stage show - something to talk about ;-)
off to Byron bay for a few days - something to talk aobut later

....No time to talk now