Friday on my mind

Time for Friday beers. It's not a bad life really.... sit down with a beer and watch the pretty girls walk by... i can think of worse fates.

Nothing profound just an empty head.

just a quicky

If you haven't seen it yet I highly recommend Post a secret

I find it brings my life into perspective a bit... It also makes me wonder what secrets are lurking inside the people around me.

There are some strange things inside everybody's heads. Noone is exactly as they seem.... it's a bit exciting really.

just keep putting one foot in front of the other...

Today I feel great. Day two of no (well.... little) smoking and already I'm feeling better. I've started to do my "43 things" things list. Meditation and gym are the first two cabs off the rank. The stuff you are suppose to do in a "healthy, normal" life seems really easy. It's the fun and excitement that seems harder to catch.

The trouble is I don't want to lose the good stuff that I've got going for a pipe dream..... Is it fear, sanity or cash flow that stops me from chucking it all in and following my wilder dreams?

There are many hooks into my brain that I intend to remove one by one until everything just flows (if that is possible).

Either way i'm starting with the small stuff and working my way up. As static as things seem now, change is always in the air. I just don't want to trap myslef into a life I don't want to lead, even if that life is comfortable, safe, secure. I know that I am the one doing the trapping... it's not anyone else that limits what I do.

Just making some plans and starting to carry them out has removed some of the cobwebs from my mind. Give me a few weeks and I'm gonna start to rebuild the big stuff in my life.

So why am I here?

Every time I try and sit down to write I find my self banging on about all the little details of my life. Thoughts have a way of echoing around in my head if they are not released. This blog is about release those thoughts in a harmless way without boring my friends. At the moment I'm at work and the day is streatching out before me. Really I should be getting down to some serious stuff and completing the tasks that have been assigned to me but today i just can't.

I'm looking for a change in my life. I realised I wan't alone in this when I came across the 43 things site. Everybody wants to do more stuff with their lives. The bit I have trouble with is selecting from the countless millions of things, the few things that I could focus on. Of couse as soon as I decide on something I change my mind a few minutes later......

The beginning

I wanted somewhere to rant where it would do no harm and this seems to be the place. If you are not a fan of self absorbed ramblings then this is not the place for you.